After the devastating loss to the Broncos last Saturday, I was in shock, but by the time I went to bed on Sunday night, I started to feel severe pain.

When I arrived at my desk on Monday morning and saw all my Dragons gear, the transformation from pain to anger kicked in.

The realisation of another wasted season saw the removal of all St George Illawarra merchandise from my desk.

Depression was soon to follow as comments like ``I'm not going to watch another game'' began to slip out.

But the depression phase ended on Thursday morning thanks to the thoughtful efforts of colleague Chris Boulous. Chris is a Roosters supporter nothing more needs to be said.

It was his brave actions that sparked the next stage of the grieving process.

Still in deep depression, I trudged into the office, only to be greeted by the 2010 NRL draw which had taken its rightful place on the wall. This was the upward turn.

The day I started writing out possible team line-ups for the round one clash against the Eels at Parramatta Stadium.

Despite the sudden turn for the better, it took until Friday night for me to eventually reach the final stage: acceptance.

For most of Sydney, last Friday night was all about Parramatta and the Bulldogs. For me, it was supposed to be just another night.

But my love for the game ensured that I, as well as millions more, spent the night glued in front of the television.

The decision to finally accept what had happened was a wise one, because the match was one of the best I had ever seen.

The physicality, the skill factor, the bravery it was just an amazing game of football.

After the match, I couldn't help but jump into my car and onto the Parramatta bandwagon. I took a drive into the heart of Parramatta.

Car horns were beeping, streets were blocked off, people were on top of their cars and Church Street became the home to hundreds of blue-and-gold supporters who celebrated their club's historic victory into the early hours.

It was nothing like I had ever experienced, but being a Dragons supporter, I guess most of you would already have assumed that.

Parramatta fans, enjoy it while you can, because you never know how long it can be between drinks.

I'm still waiting.